1 a.m Words

The clock hits one a.m
I have more than one thing
on my mind...
The first thing is
my gratefulness to God
Prayers answered
relationships restored
one after another
in perfect order
perfect timing
I have been told to wait
not to be the first to initiate
so here i am.
One A.M
waiting.
At times I get so frustrated
I'd rather take steps backwards
But I know
One step away is darkness
two steps is Hell.

Complications

Life gets complicated when you don't focus in on the Light.
Scars feel raw when you don't allow forgiveness to enter your heart
Temptations get more appealing when you don't compare the forbidden fruit to Jesus.
Burdens get heavier when you don't allow God to help you carry the load.
Brows get furrowed when your mind is fixed on your "issues".
We will always have scars, temptations, and burdens in life.
We will also always have a God who wants to hold us close to his heart and say
"I am here. Keep your eyes on me. I won't disappoint you."

God, I need you to hold me.

Right now...

Store Bought Christianity

I am reading the book of Jeremiah right now. Jeremiah was a prophet who was sent to the kingdoms of Israel and Judah to plead for them to turn back to their loving father. Both kingdoms were obviously sinning, the difference was that Israel did not try to hide their corruption, they new they were messing up, they just did not care. On the other hand, Judah tried to cover up their sin with false pretences and "religious activities". Which do you think God had mercy on?

Judah looked down on her sister Israel
She was always comparing
"I go to church and pray before my meals" and
"She sleeps with a different guy every season of the year."

She rolled her eyes everytime
Her sister walked into the room

Judah, God wants you to know
that your fake religion is disgusting in his sight.
Your fake Christianity is store bought
and mass produced

You hide your heart of judgement
behind empty words of prayer
"Did you hear what Israel did?? Isn't that just SO sad....?"
What you are really trying to say is, I can't believe she's a whore.

There is a little bit of Judah in all of us. So hear this:


"Faithless Israel is MORE RIGHTEOUS than unfaithful Judah." Jeremiah 3:11

Let's just pray that we are not walking around preaching a false Christianity that draws a line between "us and them". Because really...arn't we all the same jacked up people who need a love greater than ourselves to carry us home to heaven? I am officially challenged by Jesus to be more real. Jesus is the king of zero bs.

A Stranger to My Father

I felt like a stranger

roaming aimlessly on this earth.

I did not let love in.

I was scared to change.

God, you overcame my heart.

Right from the start.

You had your eye on me.

Now I have eyes to see.

I was never alone.

You were always there.

Guiding me to this place

A place of discovery

A place of joy

A place called HOME.

Thank you, for knowing my heart

Even when I couldn't feel

You ignited my heart

with a passion so real

You take me back

over and over again

no matter how fast I run

I can't outrun the Son

Why do we deny

the very gift we don't deserve.

Your love.

Your love.

Your love.

Is better than life.

Why can't we just believe.

"Praise Your Name"

Though my soul weighs me down

I will still praise your name

Though my hands are small

I will still raise them to praise your name

though my heart is dim

I will allow you to set it ablaze with passion

to praise your name

though the past haunts me

I will let today praise your name

let all things come together to praise your perfect name.