Thursday, January 14, 2010

Thirsty?

Isaiah 44:3 For I will pour out water on the thirsty land And streams on the dry ground; I will pour out My Spirit on your offspring And My blessing on your descendants;

Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him." John 7:38

Thursday, December 31, 2009

every status update I have made since last year

You change your status messages twice a week !

Since August 31, 2008, you have changed your status messages 281 times.




Your All Status Mesaages
1. Stephanie looking at old pictures and thinking about how distant the past seems on Sunday, August 31, 2008

2. Stephanie is holding on. on Saturday, September 6, 2008

4. Stephanie is holding on. on Sunday, September 7, 2008

5. Stephanie we have already won! on Tuesday, September 9, 2008

6. Stephanie Fidelity-Regina Spektor on Tuesday, September 9, 2008

7. Stephanie God is at the heart of HOME on Sunday, September 14, 2008

8. Stephanie on Friday, September 19, 2008

9. Stephanie Psalm 4:8, �I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.� ( on Friday, September 19, 2008

10. Stephanie is John 11:4 "When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it." on Friday, September 19, 2008

11. Stephanie my friends truly show me that there is a God of love. :) on Sunday, September 28, 2008

12. Stephanie my friends truly show me that there is a God of love. :) on Sunday, September 28, 2008

13. Stephanie is ready for a night in. on Friday, October 3, 2008

14. Stephanie come to my apartment on sunday at 9 if you want to carpool to Jason and wills baptism! on Friday, October 3, 2008

15. Stephanie I can still hear you and it brings me so much joy!! on Saturday, October 4, 2008

16. Stephanie You have taken me so far. Why would I want to take steps backwards? on Saturday, October 4, 2008

17. Stephanie on Saturday, October 4, 2008

18. Stephanie is prayer meeting relocated to Casa de aldo, mike, gabe and karls (9:30pm) on Wednesday, October 15, 2008

19. Stephanie on Thursday, October 16, 2008

20. Stephanie is sick. on Thursday, October 16, 2008

21. Stephanie pray for my throat...it hurts. on Thursday, October 16, 2008

22. Stephanie on Friday, October 17, 2008

23. Stephanie is content but not satisfied on Friday, October 17, 2008

24. Stephanie had a good talk with her momma on Friday, October 17, 2008

25. Stephanie has decided not to settle on Friday, October 17, 2008

26. Stephanie everyone is invited tomy house in ROWLAND for some homecooked beef stew noodle soup! 18115 via calma rowland heights 91748 on Monday, November 10, 2008

27. Stephanie is invited tomy house in ROWLAND for some homecooked beef stew noodle soup tuesday at 12:30! 18115 via calma rowland heights 91748 on Monday, November 10, 2008

28. Stephanie on Monday, November 10, 2008

29. Stephanie if God is a songwriter then these fallen leaves of mine can be redeemed. -Jon Foreman on Monday, November 10, 2008

30. Stephanie search me O God and know my heart...try me and know my anxious thoughts...lead me in the way everlasting on Friday, November 14, 2008

31. Stephanie these fires are really starting to make me think on Saturday, November 15, 2008

32. Stephanie on Tuesday, November 18, 2008

33. Stephanie no longer wants to be jaded. Help me to believe in others on Tuesday, November 18, 2008

34. Stephanie is under repair on Wednesday, November 19, 2008

35. Stephanie on Thursday, November 20, 2008

36. Stephanie needs more of You on Thursday, November 20, 2008

37. Stephanie get rid of your noisy worship, that is empty yet loud. on Friday, November 21, 2008

38. Stephanie on Tuesday, November 25, 2008

39. Stephanie baked chicken for the first time yay! :) on Tuesday, November 25, 2008

40. Stephanie And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you."psalm 39:7 on Tuesday, November 25, 2008

41. Stephanie go back to when you first believed. on Tuesday, November 25, 2008

42. Stephanie is in Taiwan, and sees a lot of oppression. Please pray for hearts to be changed and opportunities for me to share my faith..I miss home, but God is with me on Sunday, November 30, 2008

43. Stephanie on Wednesday, December 3, 2008

44. Stephanie the wedding is tomorrow, pray for opportunities to serve and love :) on Wednesday, December 3, 2008

45. Stephanie on Wednesday, December 3, 2008

46. Stephanie Don't let anything get between you and God. Relationships are hollow unless you have the most important Relationship first. on Wednesday, December 3, 2008

47. Stephanie Our heart's break when people walk away from Faith. on Sunday, December 7, 2008

48. Stephanie you are the same yesterday, today, and FOREVER! on Tuesday, December 16, 2008

49. Stephanie going to spend tonight at the bookstore :) on Saturday, December 20, 2008

50. Stephanie Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed� (John 20:29s on Saturday, December 20, 2008

51. Stephanie is crocheting!!!!!! on Saturday, December 20, 2008

52. Stephanie I could not choose anyone over You. Thank you for strength on Sunday, December 21, 2008

53. Stephanie is Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.matthew 5:6 on Sunday, December 21, 2008

54. Stephanie waiting..waiting...waiting..because you are worth it. and You are even more worth it. :) on Monday, December 22, 2008

55. Stephanie is showing her photography at the Plaza gallery at the TSU next semester!! Thanks God! :) on Tuesday, December 23, 2008

56. Stephanie is finally learned how to use LAYERS on photoshopped, a whole new world has opened up to me!!!! on Thursday, December 25, 2008

57. Stephanie my soul thirsts for you alone on Thursday, December 25, 2008

58. Stephanie just watched seven pounds with Will Smith, andcan't help but think about Jesus. watch it and you will get what i mean on Thursday, December 25, 2008

59. Stephanie neeeeeeds more of YOU!! on Thursday, December 25, 2008

60. Stephanie this is all I got... on Friday, December 26, 2008

61. Stephanie He is mighty to save on Tuesday, December 30, 2008

62. Stephanie is loving Jimmy Needham's music <3 on Thursday, January 1, 2009

63. Stephanie the past is buried in the bottom of the ocean. on Thursday, January 1, 2009

64. Stephanie anyone want to carpool to OneHEart next friday? on Friday, January 2, 2009

65. Stephanie what should i name my art gallery?!!?! on Friday, January 2, 2009

66. Stephanie is gettin boba with the cuz!! on Friday, January 2, 2009

67. Stephanie is going to the griffith observatory tonight to get a closer look at His stars <3 on Saturday, January 3, 2009

68. Stephanie ate at stinking rose and now is a stinking rose on Saturday, January 3, 2009

69. Stephanie What in the world do you least desire? on Sunday, January 4, 2009

70. Stephanie All who are thirsty, come to the fountain, dip your heart in the stream of life, let the pain and the sorrow be washed away, in the waves of his mercy, on Sunday, January 4, 2009

71. Stephanie is going to Turkey this summer! Thank you Jesus :) on Monday, January 5, 2009

72. Stephanie What does it mean to live FREE after being set FREE? on Thursday, January 8, 2009

73. Stephanie I need a Voice that is louder than mine, lead me on Thursday, January 8, 2009

74. Stephanie Believe your beliefs and doubt your doubts on Sunday, January 11, 2009

75. Stephanie My life, poured out for the kingdom of God, is beautiful, even though others may see it as a waste. on Wednesday, January 14, 2009

76. Stephanie is exhausted, ready for You to overfill my cup. on Tuesday, January 20, 2009

77. Stephanie spent a lot of money this Christmas...simple living..whatever happened to you? on Wednesday, January 21, 2009

78. Stephanie come to the TSU to see my art gallery! Basement of the TSU! TUrn left and keep walking..."A Glimpse of His Heart" on Wednesday, January 21, 2009

79. Stephanie envy is poison to our own Spirit on Wednesday, January 21, 2009

80. Stephanie check out my art gallery in the basement of the TSU FIRESIDE LOUNGE!! :) on Monday, January 26, 2009

81. Stephanie In His time, he makes everything beautiful in His time on Sunday, February 1, 2009

82. Stephanie set my feet upon a rock. on Monday, February 2, 2009

83. Stephanie never hurts to ask on Monday, February 2, 2009

84. Stephanie create in me a clean heart, O God on Wednesday, February 4, 2009

85. Stephanie just prayed and worshipped with her beautiful roommates! i love acts 2:42 on Wednesday, February 4, 2009

86. Stephanie is going to LOVE and INFLUENCE! on Friday, February 6, 2009

87. Stephanie The meaning of prayer is that we get hold of God, not the answer. on Monday, February 9, 2009

88. Stephanie The meaning of prayer is that we get hold of God, not the answer.- Oswald Chambers on Monday, February 9, 2009

89. Stephanie beginning a new journey... on Tuesday, February 10, 2009

90. Stephanie just wants to be real. on Tuesday, February 10, 2009

91. Stephanie you have abandoned the love you had at first, remember therefore from where you have fallen. rev 2:4-5 on Wednesday, February 11, 2009

92. Stephanie has been tagged so many times for this 25 facts and i will start reading them NOW on Thursday, February 12, 2009

93. Stephanie always go back to what you know is true. Don't get lost in the small things that may seem big. Just remember the love of God. on Friday, February 13, 2009

94. Stephanie praying is breathing on Sunday, February 15, 2009

95. Stephanie empty me. on Sunday, February 15, 2009

96. Stephanie nip sin in the bud before it grows on Monday, February 16, 2009

97. Stephanie hey SMALL GROUP! check you inbox! sg will be at my apartment until further notice! on Monday, February 16, 2009

98. Stephanie is staying home from school tomorrow. pray for me, i caught the cold sick like! thank God for His joy...otherwise ii would just be depressed all the time on Tuesday, February 17, 2009

99. Stephanie God is enough...even when we keep searching for something else on Tuesday, February 17, 2009

100. Stephanie is HEY YALL COME 2 THE GARDEN CAFE TONIGHT AT 730 IN HONOR OF BLACK HISTORY MONTH POETRY SLAM!!....FREE FOOD FREE PRIZES HONESTLY NEED I SAY MORE on Thursday, February 19, 2009

101. Stephanie we are called to be free! on Thursday, February 19, 2009

102. Stephanie hanging with all her roomies tonight <333 on Friday, February 20, 2009

103. Stephanie where should I go to take photos for my photo class? on Saturday, February 21, 2009

104. Stephanie vanity. on Saturday, February 21, 2009

105. Stephanie When we pray, we no longer do God�s work in our own strength, but in His strength.-J.M on Saturday, February 21, 2009

106. Stephanie cleanse my eyes. on Monday, February 23, 2009

107. Stephanie fight against complacency on Tuesday, February 24, 2009

108. Stephanie small group's at my apartment again!!! 3060 Madison ave D11 fullerton, 92831 on Wednesday, February 25, 2009

109. Stephanie sooooooooo tired! on Wednesday, February 25, 2009

110. Stephanie Turkey. summer. me. God. on Thursday, February 26, 2009

111. Stephanie I don't deserve your love. on Saturday, February 28, 2009

112. Stephanie It is for freedom that Christ has set us free on Saturday, February 28, 2009

113. Stephanie thank you everyone for coming on friday!! My face hurt at the end of the night from smiling so much! on Sunday, March 1, 2009

114. Stephanie doubt your doubts and believe your beliefs on Monday, March 2, 2009

115. Stephanie a mature person is nobodies victim on Wednesday, March 4, 2009

116. Stephanie jealous=chaos. on Saturday, March 7, 2009

117. Stephanie jealousy=chaos. No thanks. on Saturday, March 7, 2009

118. Stephanie daylight savings time-turn your clocks forward by an hour! on Sunday, March 8, 2009

119. Stephanie grain of salt? on Monday, March 9, 2009

120. Stephanie read the daily titan feature section and look for "a glimpse of his heart"!! on Thursday, March 12, 2009

121. Stephanie ^ Random fact: the chance of Jesus Christ fulfilling 8 prophecies (There is something like 300 in all) is 1 in 100 MILLION BILLION!!!! on Friday, March 13, 2009

122. Stephanie lust is saying "I must have this at once!" we all lust for different things. none the less...it is lust on Saturday, March 14, 2009

123. Stephanie the time is now. on Saturday, March 14, 2009

124. Stephanie bible study is officially at my apartment at 4:15 on weds!!! don't forget to meet with your partner or talk on the phone at least about last weeks application! on Monday, March 16, 2009

125. Stephanie I went rock climbing and I am sooooooooooo sore!! it was so fun though!!! on Wednesday, March 18, 2009

126. Stephanie Faith never knows where it is being led but it loves and knows the One Who is leading..the final stage in the life of faith is attaining character,not "success" on Thursday, March 19, 2009

127. Stephanie A woman's heart should be so lost in God, that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her. on Friday, March 20, 2009

128. Stephanie we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance Heb12:1 on Sunday, March 22, 2009

129. Stephanie I want to watch I LOVE YOU MAN!! on Monday, March 23, 2009

130. Stephanie I realized that I like contemporary folk music :) on Wednesday, March 25, 2009

131. Stephanie piscilla ahn- wallflower on Thursday, March 26, 2009

132. Stephanie �Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.�- Hebrews 12:2 on Friday, April 3, 2009

133. Stephanie They cried out, "Away with him! Away with him, crucify him!" Pilate said to them "shall I crucify your king?" on Saturday, April 4, 2009

134. Stephanie everyone go and listen to "Ruin Me" by Satellite Soul. on Saturday, April 4, 2009

135. Stephanie sigh. x10 on Sunday, April 5, 2009

136. Stephanie i feel sick. inside. on Sunday, April 5, 2009

137. Stephanie know who you are in the Lord and nothing will shake you. on Sunday, April 5, 2009

138. Stephanie beach day on saturday??? who is down?!?!! on Monday, April 6, 2009

139. Stephanie what's the best way to go about getting rid of herpes? :( on Monday, April 6, 2009

140. Stephanie oh my gosh some jerk went on my facebook and wrote that thing about the herpes! lol that's hilarious! on Monday, April 6, 2009

141. Stephanie "I came here with a load, and I feel so much lighter now I since I met you."-Green Eyes, Coldplay on Monday, April 6, 2009

142. Stephanie Lord please be with my sister, God don't let her forget that your hand is always there, even when we do not reach out for it. Even the darkness is light to you. No matter how dark our world is, your light can burn away the darkness. on Monday, April 6, 2009

143. Stephanie Good Friday service at Emmanual Church in Paramount! Come and check out who Jesus is! Service starts at 5:30, i'll be leaving my apartment at 4:45! carpool baby!!!! on Tuesday, April 7, 2009

144. Stephanie Good Friday service at Emmanual Church in Paramount! Come and check out who Jesus is! Service starts at 5:30, i'll be leaving my apartment at 4:45! carpool baby!!! 3060 madison ave D11 fullerton on Friday, April 10, 2009

145. Stephanie For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace. Rom 6:14 on Friday, April 10, 2009

146. Stephanie God is gentle. on Saturday, April 11, 2009

147. Stephanie Easter is more than just a day to find eggs, it is a day to find Jesus and the life He gave us by dieing for us. on Sunday, April 12, 2009

148. Stephanie I want You. on Sunday, April 12, 2009

149. Stephanie when our needs (emotional, spiritual,and physical) are not met, we go to desperate measures to meet them. We do anything and everything except actually go to the One who can meet them. Why? Why....why???? on Sunday, April 12, 2009

150. Stephanie hey friends if you don't have verizon, just call me instead of texting, I have been dishin out way too many texts, but if you have verizon text away on Monday, April 13, 2009

151. Stephanie the pain of crucifixion is so horrendous that a word was invented to explain it: excruciating literally means �from the cross.� on Monday, April 13, 2009

152. Stephanie keep your eyes on the sandy beach, not a childs sandbox on Monday, April 13, 2009

153. Stephanie joy in mourning. on Wednesday, April 15, 2009

154. Stephanie love hurts, but sometimes it's a good hurt on Wednesday, April 15, 2009

155. Stephanie man, death cab for cutie is playing in L.A in july..but I will be in Turkey, GOd let me see them play live sometime before i DIE! on Wednesday, April 15, 2009

156. Stephanie strongly dislikes when men shake my hand so hard that I feel like crying. I am not a big burly football player, please don't treat my hand like it. :) on Friday, April 17, 2009

157. Stephanie come to Karls place for some free dinner tonight! Ensenitas way , placentia, ca call me for more info! dinner starts at 7!! on Friday, April 17, 2009

158. Stephanie come to Karls place for some free dinner tonight! Encenitas way , placentia, ca call me for more info! dinner starts at 7! on Friday, April 17, 2009

159. Stephanie rest securely in God�s loving hands. on Friday, April 17, 2009

160. Stephanie decipher this heart on Sunday, April 19, 2009

161. Stephanie God is so good. You meet me where I am everytime. on Monday, April 20, 2009

162. Stephanie movie time with my lover, Phoebe hahah on Monday, April 20, 2009

163. Stephanie old bands, old songs, old feelings, new me. (death cab, postal service <333) I will always love you. on Tuesday, April 21, 2009

164. Stephanie misses feeling bored. on Tuesday, April 21, 2009

165. Stephanie I want every death cab song every created. on Tuesday, April 21, 2009

166. Stephanie one step closer to owning all deathcabs songs. I just need the CD GIVE UP on Monday, April 27, 2009

167. Stephanie who wants to go to the beach tuesday night?! My Christian club is hosting a bonfire/poetry night! on Monday, April 27, 2009

168. Stephanie be faithful where you are. the end. on Thursday, April 30, 2009

169. Stephanie I am waiting for you. on Friday, May 1, 2009

170. Stephanie grace=gift on Sunday, May 3, 2009

171. Stephanie Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understandings, and he will make straight your paths. on Monday, May 4, 2009

172. Stephanie stay the course. on Wednesday, May 6, 2009

173. Stephanie if anyone wants to rent out my room this summer, talk to me, we can work out pricing and stuff! on Thursday, May 7, 2009

174. Stephanie dehydration=headache on Friday, May 8, 2009

175. Stephanie my phone broke. on Saturday, May 9, 2009

176. Stephanie I miss you, but... on Saturday, May 9, 2009

177. Stephanie Life with Jesus is more than just the mountain top experiences, 99% of the time, it is just everyday life with Him. That's why He says to walk by faith not by sight. on Sunday, May 10, 2009

178. Stephanie my eye sight becomes blurry everytime I to look towards the beach, they get stuck on looking at the sandbox. Lord, help me to see beyond my lack of faith. on Monday, May 11, 2009

179. Stephanie start taggin peeps! on Friday, May 15, 2009

180. Stephanie You are my home on Saturday, May 16, 2009

181. Stephanie moments like these feel so epic, because I have a better vision of who you really are on Saturday, May 16, 2009

182. Stephanie sitting here, waiting, wishing, for your arrival... on Saturday, May 16, 2009

183. Stephanie i felt little baby rachel move in my cousin's belly today. It was amazing. the end. on Sunday, May 17, 2009

184. Stephanie I am raising money for a mission trip to Turkey this summer, if you are led to donate,please let me know! :)) on Monday, May 18, 2009

185. Stephanie beach on friday! on Wednesday, May 20, 2009

186. Stephanie if anyone needs a ride to the beach just call me asap on Thursday, May 21, 2009

187. Stephanie meeting at pats place at 12 for the beach! on Friday, May 22, 2009

188. Stephanie By your wounds, I am healed. on Friday, May 22, 2009

189. Stephanie turning off my phone till weds, need some time with God, to rest, reflect, and regenerate, just leave a message. on Monday, May 25, 2009

190. Stephanie FYI-my trip this summer got pushed back by a week, so i'll be leaving on July 8, not june 29. that means more time to chill with you guys! <33 on Tuesday, May 26, 2009

191. Stephanie going on a bike adventure. :) be back in 10 years. on Tuesday, May 26, 2009

192. Stephanie I am feeling more rested and even more excited for this summer! God is on the move. Now is the time! Are you on board? or just bored? haha on Tuesday, May 26, 2009

193. Stephanie How does it feel to see the world in color, not just black and white? How does it feel to love someone every second of every day? How does it feel to look at him in amazement because God created him perfectly? When will I see You and hear you perfectly? I on Wednesday, May 27, 2009

194. Stephanie God is bigger than the air I breathe. on Thursday, May 28, 2009

195. Stephanie Love is patient on Thursday, May 28, 2009

196. Stephanie why do I wonder what You are saying, when I can just read Your Word? (rhetorical).... on Friday, May 29, 2009

197. Stephanie It would be a lie to run away on Friday, May 29, 2009

198. Stephanie 'Praise the LORD, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name...he who SATISFIES your DESIRES with GOOD things so that your youth is RENEWED like the EAGLES.' Psalm 103:1-3 on Friday, May 29, 2009

199. Stephanie rachel is perfect. on Saturday, May 30, 2009

200. Stephanie Insecurities are the result of failing to put your full confidence in God. In Him, I have no room for jealousy and selfish ambition. on Monday, June 1, 2009

201. Stephanie anyone want to go to my church's college bible study this thursday? on Monday, June 1, 2009

202. Stephanie I <3 Dev Patel from Slumdog. on Thursday, June 4, 2009

203. Stephanie what's everyone doing tomorrow (friday)? on Thursday, June 4, 2009

204. Stephanie it's official..i am leaving July 8th! on Friday, June 5, 2009

205. Stephanie sometimes we pray to God, and expect Him to answer yesterday. His timing is perfect. on Saturday, June 6, 2009

206. Stephanie GOD. break my broken way of seeing YOU. on Tuesday, June 9, 2009

207. Stephanie still raising money for my middle east missions trip. i am leaving in less than four weeks! I would love to tell you more about it if you are interseted in donating! on Friday, June 12, 2009

208. Stephanie Thank you for Your abundant love! on Monday, June 15, 2009

209. Stephanie at bible study yesterday when we were singing, I looked up and saw a HUGE rainbow. Thanks God. :) on Monday, June 15, 2009

210. Stephanie this Wednesday (June 17) is our first Summer IV Bible Study!!! As a reminder, it will be held from 7pm-9pm @ Mr. Partick Camacho's apt: 625 Encinitas Way Apt C, Placentia CA on Tuesday, June 16, 2009

211. Stephanie please pray for our friend Nick, he is in the hospital in South Africa with brain trauma. pray for his soul on Tuesday, June 16, 2009

212. Stephanie I need peace in the midst of chaos and uncertainty on Thursday, June 18, 2009

213. Stephanie Artist: Hillsongs Australia Song: When I think about the Lord When I Think about the Lord, How He saved me, how He raised me, how He filled me, with the Holy Ghost. How He healed me, to the uttermost. When I Think about the Lord, how He picked me up a on Sunday, June 21, 2009

214. Stephanie In the end, God's will is not a goal or destination, it's the condition of your heart. on Sunday, June 21, 2009

215. Stephanie Praise GOD!! Nick so doing way better, the doctors are slowly taking him out of his coma!!!!! on Monday, June 22, 2009

216. Stephanie UPDATE AS OF JUNE 22ND: From Nick's sister, Katherine de Guzman: To all of Nick's friends and those who know my brother, I want to give you guys some good news. He is doing much better than he did 16 days ago. He is stable and comfortable. Based on the nu on Monday, June 22, 2009

217. Stephanie joy in the midst of suffering on Tuesday, June 23, 2009

218. Stephanie off to San Francisco, will be unavailable till next week! on Thursday, June 25, 2009

219. Stephanie God is not mad at you. on Thursday, July 2, 2009

220. Stephanie i'm leaving on a jet plane, i don't know when ill be back again...actually i do know. ill be back aug 7 haha on Friday, July 3, 2009

221. Stephanie I woke up and forgot who i was. then i remembered. and then i remembered i was going to the middle east tomorrow and got supperrrrrrr excited!!! on Monday, July 6, 2009

222. Stephanie Hey friends, if you want to write me an e-mail while I am away this month, feel free to! I would love to hear from yall! I will have access to internet cafes so I will be able to read them! on Monday, July 6, 2009

223. Stephanie I AM HERE IN THE MIDDLE EAST!! WOOOOTT!!! on Friday, July 10, 2009

224. Stephanie Don't know what to do with myself...ha. on Monday, August 10, 2009

225. Stephanie delight in the lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart on Thursday, August 20, 2009

226. Stephanie so it ends..so it begins. on Sunday, August 23, 2009

227. Stephanie �Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, you hypocrites. You cleanse the outside of cup and dish, but inside they are full of plunder and self-indulgence. Blind Pharisee, cleanse first the inside of the cup, so that the outside also may be clean.� Mt 23:23-26 on Tuesday, August 25, 2009

228. Stephanie laying on tree branches on Wednesday, August 26, 2009

229. Stephanie We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. II Corinthians 4:8,9 on Saturday, August 29, 2009

230. Stephanie WALK BY FAITH. NOT BY YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES. on Sunday, August 30, 2009

231. Stephanie Man, I have had a crazy college life. I have seen things I never thought I would see, experienced things I couldn't even imagine, God took my little seed of faith and used it to move mountains. I am so grateful, even in the midst of a stressful and tiring week. on Monday, August 31, 2009

232. Stephanie man. i hate religion. but I love jesus. what does that mean? on Wednesday, September 2, 2009

233. Stephanie basketball game tonight!! on Thursday, September 3, 2009

234. Stephanie tenth avenue north-times. on Sunday, September 6, 2009

235. Stephanie I MISS MY JO, PHO, AND CHELS on Tuesday, September 8, 2009

236. Stephanie Never needed You more. on Tuesday, September 8, 2009

237. Stephanie it's your kindness lord, that leads us to repentance on Sunday, September 13, 2009

238. Stephanie Jesus is bigger than the storm. Never lose sight of that. Like Peter walking on water..we will sink sooner or later. That's when we ask for help. on Sunday, September 13, 2009

239. Stephanie excited to see my turkey team this saturday! on Wednesday, September 16, 2009

240. Stephanie grace upon grace on Sunday, September 20, 2009

241. Stephanie can't believe it' weds already!!!! this semester is seriously flying by!!! on Wednesday, September 23, 2009

242. Stephanie get off facebook and do your homework stephanie! ahhhh on Sunday, September 27, 2009

243. Stephanie If grace is an ocean we're all sinking. on Sunday, September 27, 2009

244. Stephanie WOW YOU GUYS ARE SOOO AWESOME!! NOT EVEN PAST NOON AND I ALREADY FEEL LIKE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TO THE N'TH DEGREE!!! :))) on Monday, September 28, 2009

245. Stephanie and so she turns 21, and life makes a little more sense than a year ago, but life is just beginning, and all she can think about is how He loves us in every season. Her heart expands a little more this year. on Wednesday, September 30, 2009

246. Stephanie We must accept times of separation as part of closeness. on Thursday, October 1, 2009

247. Stephanie catalina was the business, the boat ride back was crazy though, 7 foot waves crashing against our boat...not the bus-i-ness. on Monday, October 5, 2009

248. Stephanie Chelsea :) on Saturday, October 10, 2009

249. Stephanie What is your purpose in life? on Wednesday, October 14, 2009

250. Stephanie don't get lost staring at the valleys, turn your gaze back to Him. on Sunday, October 18, 2009

251. Stephanie my cup overflows. on Tuesday, October 20, 2009

252. Stephanie more to me than you can see on Tuesday, October 20, 2009

253. Stephanie California Zephyr-Benjamin Gibbard & Jay Farrar on Wednesday, October 21, 2009

254. Stephanie I think majestic trees are God's reminder of how small we are and how big He is. Peace. on Saturday, October 24, 2009

255. Stephanie HALLOWEEN. HOW MUCH I HATE HALLOWEEN. BUT HOW I DO DRESSING UP LIKE SNOW WHITE. :) on Saturday, October 31, 2009

256. Stephanie Happy NOVEMBER! on Sunday, November 1, 2009

257. Stephanie quiting facebook for a few days or weeks or months. see ya later everyone. :) on Monday, November 2, 2009

258. Stephanie pray for the fog to go away! i need to do this photo project!!!!!!!!!! ah! on Wednesday, November 11, 2009

259. Stephanie New email: stephanievyu@gmail.com on Wednesday, November 11, 2009

260. Stephanie ingrid michaelson-the chain. on Sunday, November 15, 2009

261. Stephanie john mayer-free falling on Tuesday, November 17, 2009

262. Stephanie I am an introvert with extroverted tendencies. on Monday, November 23, 2009

263. Stephanie Just finished part 1 of a photoshoot..part two is tomorrow! on Tuesday, November 24, 2009

264. Stephanie PRAY FOR ME TODAY FRIENDS. GONNA FACE MY FEARS. on Wednesday, November 25, 2009

265. Stephanie whew...i like how when you are sooo stressed/overwhelmed/broken that you pray for help..and you end up falling asleep..haha not even falling asleep, just straight up knocking out..and you wake up and everything you felt is like 10 times less.. on Wednesday, November 25, 2009

266. Stephanie happy day of thanks! on Thursday, November 26, 2009

267. Stephanie if you come around again, then i will take, i will take the chains from off the door. on Friday, December 4, 2009

268. Stephanie Freedom comes with learning how to Trust. on Monday, December 14, 2009

269. Stephanie i have my own for reeeezie website! www.stephanieyu.daportfolio.com on Wednesday, December 16, 2009

270. Stephanie www.stephanieyu.daportfolio.com on Friday, December 18, 2009

271. Stephanie thanks everyone for praying for me!! i got the internship with Luke Duval. Look him up! he is tighttttttttt!! look me up too...www.stephanieyu.daportfolio.com on Monday, December 21, 2009

272. Stephanie I love Christmas. :) I love Christ....MAS (more). on Wednesday, December 23, 2009

273. Stephanie 2009 has been good because God has been all up in it! on Sunday, December 27, 2009

274. Stephanie what are the top ten things you didn't expect to happen this year? on Monday, December 28, 2009

275. Stephanie I love friends who uplift my soul. :) on Tuesday, December 29, 2009

276. Stephanie I want rich and satisfying life. I won't settle for anything less. He worked too hard for me to settle. on Wednesday, December 30, 2009

277. Stephanie i am officially in love with Ingrid Michaelson and her lovely voice, I am officially in love with Dakota Fanning in Secret Life of Bees, and I am officially in love with..... on Wednesday, December 30, 2009

278. Stephanie getting a haircut today!! finally! it's been a year! ...they sound kind of snobby though on the phone :/ on Wednesday, December 30, 2009

279. Stephanie anyone know how to use wordpress.org??? on Wednesday, December 30, 2009

280. Stephanie adventure in L.A today? What do you say? on Thursday, December 31, 2009

281. Stephanie stomach burns..too much salsa on Thursday, December 31, 2009

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Holidays


Early in my life, Holidays were a time of joy and celebration, but my family has gone through many valleys in the past few years. This year has marked the first year in a long time where I have not been afraid of Holidays. I know I can count on my family to gather together. I have accepted that my family may not look like other families that I use to envy. We are far from perfect, each quirky, each with their own issues, but nevertheless we have never given up on our family. Finally, at 21 I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that life is imperfect and I can't wait until it is perfect to enjoy it.

This Christmas has been a time of love and joy. I don't pretend that things are perfect, yet I can remain content in the brokenness because I know there is hope and I know that we have come so far from where we once were. Things get better when you aren't afraid to face reality.



I saw Revolutionary Road tonight. It is a sad sad movie about a failing marriage set in the 50's starring Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet. I have been so scared to watch this movie because I was afraid that I would not be able to handle any pain that felt familiar in my own life. But lately I have been feeling strong even in my weakness. So I decided to finally watch it. The movie magnifies the feeling of discontent and "hopeless emptiness" that we so often face in our lives when we forget that we ARE loved and cared for by Someone so much bigger than our depression. This couple was so obsessed with running away from the emptiness which they blamed on suburban life and on one another. Their cure for the pain is to run away to Paris and live a adventurous life rather than a monotonous surburban lifestyle. They fail to realize that whatever they are running away from is already inside. No matter where they run, the emptiness will follow.

This painful movie made me remember that I no longer want to live a life that puts hope in "running" away from pain. Life without a connection with Jesus is HARD. I am not saying this to sound religious or narrow. I am just speaking from personal experience. Every gift of relational healing I have received throughout my life always points back to Him and that beautiful scandalous night when He died so that I could live a free life. I don't fully understand the depths of Christmas or Easter. I will not claim that I understand or know Him fully until I meet him face to face.

Then I will ask Him why he claimed that

"Blessed are the poor in spirit,

for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

4Blessed are those who mourn,

for they will be comforted. (Matthew 5:1-4)"

It is true that in order to experience and understand true joy you have to experience true sorrow.

But my question is, why does it have to be so hard sometimes???

I don't know. All I know is that He is so much bigger than whatever I am and will face in my life.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Growing Through Photos

Life can get so overwhelming. Especially at this time in my life...where all the pieces are falling into place. The photos I've taken this season are those pieces and they are falling beautifully and painfully into place.

Here are some of my top photos this semester, from the most recent to least.

This is my most recent self-portrait. I am turning it in as part of my final project. The concept behind the reflection of myself is this whole idea that we see ourselves less than perfectly. No matter how healthy we are, physically, spiritually, emotionally, we still see things in a mirror dimly (2 Cor). We tend to focus on the imperfections and allow those to define who we are. Even when we are not focusing in on ourselves, the reflection of who we THINK we are is always trailing close behind.



I really liked this shot because it brings me back to this whole fantastical mood that my recent photos have taken on. I like that my back is faced away from the viewer because then it becomes less about me personally, but more about this idea of childhood and how no matter how much we want to grow up, deep down inside there will always be a childlike faith in us. Ready to spur us onto our next adventure.
It was a lot of fun taking these self-portraits, I only had 10 seconds to run into position. I loved it!



Sometimes I like to pretend that I am still a little girl with wings, ready to fly away in all her glory.



One of my first photoshoots. I wanted to shoot from an intimate perspective that allows you to really see these two ladies for who they really are.



This is Jessica my beautiful roommate. I wanted to show her stoic beauty that resembles that of a Greek goddess. I wanted to show both her strength and delicacy by putting her in a delicate dress, juxtaposed against a the strong branches of a mature tree.



This is Jina my big sister. We are learning about human trafficking and I wanted it to become more real for us by seeing one of our own tied up and helpless. It was a shoot with a spirit of darkness unlike any other.



This photo was taken early in the semester. The blurry affect depicts perfect the softness of that moment with God. I had a hard day and decided to spend some time in my favorite place on earth, cradeled in the trunk and branches of a beautiful tree. This photo reminds me of God's grace and his deep deep care for me. Even before I realize that I need rest, He provides a time and place for my soul to be replenished.




Sometimes, when it all comes down to it..I sit here and wonder whether or not the art I create will make a difference in my life and in the lives of others. When I start to focus on the uncertainties in life, I begin to lose sight of the beautiful, honorable, and amazing people and moments which make up life. When I think about life with a thankful heart, I feel a sense of joy and contentment in expressing the thoughts and feelings that I go through everyday. What gives me even more joy is the hope that someone out there can find some sense of truth in these images and ideas that is relatable. I pray that people can find a little piece of themselves in the artwork this world has to offer.

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. I hope that a sense of gratitude rushes over you and you remember how loved you are.

-Stephanie Yu

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

The glass between us?


She said..."it's like there is a piece of glass between you and the world"
This comment stings like a papercut, but the words on the paper are no less true..It makes me wonder if you just look at me like a doll in her plastic box?
Am I nice to look at, but impossible to reach?
Do you see porcelein, rather than flesh?

This scares me.
But I suppose I have to take everything with a grain of salt.
Only I know me.
What is true is up to me to decide.
If I discover a huge block of emptiness between us...then I will break it..
so you can see...
I am flesh. I am skin and bone.
I am all heart.
I am not stone.




It never really matched up.
My view of me. Your view of me.
To me I am a star trailing off in the distance...
merely passing through the sky
It looks like I am connected to the big clusters of stars that make up galaxies..but I am merely passing through.
It is beautiful, yet unsettling.
This image of me alone in a sky painted black.
But the world see's me in a different light.
It sees me engaged, a butterfly moving from one group to the next.
But where is my root?
Where are my life long friends?
The one's I've had, have all exceeded their expiration date.
Season's change, but for once, I would like my friends to survive the winter frost.
Thoughts like this can really bring me down.
But the antidote for sadness is hope.
Hope that I can be transformed, not in the twinkling of an eye,
but with time, with suffering, with breakthroughs, with monotonous minutes which make up the inbetween times
I am growing and maturing
These walls will be broken down. The hauntings of my past will cease. I will be free. I am free. You have set me free.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Frida :)





If I were a cat.
I would be you.
If you were human.
You would be me.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

off beat


I don't always get it right.
But you always take me on an adventure, anyways.


Grace.